Sunday, October 20, 2013

Heart Check


“And hast borne, and hast patience, and for my name's sake hast laboured, and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love. Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent.”
Revelation 2:3-5

“I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.”
Revelation 3:15,16

Sometimes examining yourself can be hard… but it is a good practice. People think that going to the doctor for a check-up to make sure everything is in proper working order is important..but how much more, going before the Great Physician to see if our heart is healthy and full of light, pumping at the correct level of fervency?!

It has been quite a while since my last post that wasn’t a hymn or something…and to be honest I have felt ZERO motivation to write a post of late. Well, I was thinking about my excitement for God’s Word and truth…my first love…and how that has been diminished in the past few months. Why? I have asked myself that question and of course the answer rises directly to the top. The problem is that there is no…absolutely no… good excuse for it.

What is my heart fixed upon?

What does it love?

What does it desire?

Is there one thing that I desire of the LORD?

Is that what I seek after?

Do I truly delight in my LORD because He is delightful?

Do I love the Lord Jesus Christ because He is Altogether Lovely?

How did I let my deceitful heart lose its passion for Him?

Why has my zeal diminished?

Shall I not receive good at the hand of the LORD and not evil also?

Alright…I have my stethoscope (My Bible) and I am listening to my heart…

thump………………………………………thump……………………………………..thump

mmm.. there’s a problem. Here’s what it sounded like at the beginning of this year..

THUMP.THUMP.THUMP.THUMP.THUMP.THUMP.THUTHUTHUMP! : )

Why has the rate decreased? Time to restore my romance!

Time to chase after my LORD as in the beginning! He has given me so much! He allowed me to have a conscience at a young age, being baptized at 7 years old…what have I done to prove my love and zeal for Him?! Have I rendered Him my reasonable best these past few months? Or have I let the billows roll over me and choke me? Have I had faith or started to sink? Did I even, like Peter, call out Lord! Save me or I sink?! or did I allow my soul to drown?

Oh LORD! Whatever my lot though hast taught me to say  it is well with my soul! Be still my soul thy God will undertake to guide the future, as He has the past. Thy hope, thy confidence let NOTHING shake! Chasten my soul ‘til I shall be in perfect harmony with Thee!

I cry:  LORD, please come in and sup once more with me…I shall not leave go of you until you do!! I will aggressively seek You with my whole heart, fervently!

He truly is my Beloved! My Beloved is mine and I am His! Praise His beautiful, wonderful, majestic, sweet name!

I love you LORD!

“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”
Revelation 3:20


P.s. to my reading audience…I still may not be able to post here very often (I have a job at a florist)…but I do want to post something to glorify my Jesus and magnify Him as best as I can when I do! If any of you are feeling discouraged…I would love for you to leave a comment! I feel so fully fed and overflowing…I would like to share my feast :)

6 comments:

  1. Sweet Daughter,
    I am grateful for your heart and attitude. May the LORD bless us all to repent and turn and do again our first works! Thank you for the great example ! Thank you, LORD, for giving us eyes to see and ears to hear! I know that my Redeemer liveth!

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  2. Ezekiel 16:8 "Now when I passed by thee, and looked upon thee, behold, thy time was the time of love; and I spread my skirt over thee, and covered thy nakedness: yea, I sware unto thee, and entered into a covenant with thee, saith the Lord GOD, and thou becamest mine." It is always an awesome and unbelievable thought that he would desire me to become his!!! Song of Solomon 3:4 "...but I found him whom my soul loveth: I held him, and would not let him go..." Amen! Lord strengthen us to hold tightly and remember how lovely you are, and to what depths your love came down to save us and make us yours! Thankful for the fatness of your soul, sister, and praying for it to grow steadily all the days of your life! Love, Mrs. Unger

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  3. Thank you Mrs. Unger! I love reading the Song of Solomon and knowing that all those lovely things apply to me figuratively regardless of my marital status! He is Altogether lovely! Thank you for your comment! Love you! The LORD bless and keep you in His perfect peace!

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  4. Brytni, this was a beautiful post to read and think on. Why do we let that love and devotion slip? No excuses.

    Love you, kindred spirit! :)

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  5. Thank you Sadie dear! Amen! It was wonderful to see you and speak with you this weekend!

    Love you more, lovely sister! :)

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